seperation

oh whoa whoa.
I found out some news today.
haha

so. I was in class and my dad texts me. wait, first let me introduce my dad. he's the best...to me. I love my dad. I wish I could live with him. he lives in texas now [moved after katrina]. and he's a detective. he also has his own football team. the players are like extended fam to me.

anyways, he texts me in class. here's the convo:
padre-good morning
me-morning. (:
padre-I love you. do you love me? yes, no, maybe so
me-lol si si. te amo.
padre-ok. pay attention in class and stop txting me...monique wants you to call her when you get a chance.
me-ask her if she got my txt Tuesday.
padre- we r at different locations. a txt will work if you can't call
me-different locations?
padre-me and monique are not together right now....

monique is my stop mom. I call her mommy tho. but I was kids shocked. since when did yall seperate? wht he heck? they were still together and living together this pass summer when I visited. I was so confused. but I shouldn't be cause they been having some issues in their relationship...so ehhhh. guess it was gonna happen eventually. I still love my mommy tho (: she treats me like her own whenever I'm at my dad house. and she claims me as her own, along with my four other half brothers and sisters. but yeah, I guess tht means my dad might consider moving to NC like he said before. I hope so, cause tht would be the best. ahhhhh, I can't wait to see wht he decides.....

-ciao
mikey f baby

jailbird*

"and when I looked at him through the glass, I almost broke down. but then he said 'remain strong babygirl. ill be home before long"

today was a happy/hard day for me.
I was finally able to go visit my brother in jail. I didn't know if I'd be able to handle it or not, but I had to go.

as I drove up to the place he was in, I couldn't help but wonder 'geez, I wonder how he looks now'. I haven't seen him in abt eight months. I parked and hopped up out the jag, eager to get inside and be able to hug my big bro, and smell his scent...see his smile again.

I had to go through the whole security check and all tht and then I would be able to go to the visitation area. I waited as they went and got my bro from his cell. abt five minutes later, I hear them anounce 'visitors for larry darnell gorham jr, please come in'

I walked through the open door, ready to go run and jump in his arms. but I was instead greeted by booths, tht had glass, which on the other side sat the inmates. 'wht the FCK is this?' I thought. I followed the officer to the booth my big bro was at.

as I rounded the booth wall, I looked through the glass, and there sat D. tho he had a smile on his face, I could see the sadness in his eyes. all I could do was put my hand to the glass, trying to get as close to him as I possibly could, and semi smile back.

I sat and picked up the phone they had set up, so I could talk to him. we sat and talked...talked abt this and tht, how he was doing, how my life was going, and when he could possibly get out. 'I got five years lil sis. five years....' he said, before he started to cry. 'I'm sorry. I know I said I'd always be here for you...' was all he managed to say. 'it's ok D. ill be ok.' I said. I had to at least make him believe I was ok without him.

truth is, I'm not. my big brother...tht was my nigga! lol. man. whenever I was sad, mad, felt horrible or whteva, he was my escape and always made me feel better. but now tht he's in jail, who am I to turn to? everyday I wish he would have just left the gun alone. and then maybe he wouldn't be gone so long...

ill be counting down the days til he's out, and when I can finally be with my fav person again. for now, I guess I can just look at old pictures, think of all the good memories, and hold his daughter, my beautiful niece, close whenever I think abt him.

we all waiting for you at home D.

love, mikey. <3

new classes maneee

we started new classes today, and it was pretty interesting.
here's my schedule:
1-honors us history/avid
2-honors chemistry
3-honors pre cal
4-ap eniglish 3

yeah, I'm pretty loaded down. I van already tell im gonna have tons of work. all freakin core classes!!! my teachers are pretty kool. my English teacher is hilarious to me man. and we have a small class too. RARE!

the only thing I'm not really liking is that my third period is in a trailer. it's the worst! especially when it rains. ughhhhh.

I think it's pretty ironic how I have lunch with my ex [who we shall call Donk]. now we see each other AFTER we not together?? kinda stuff is that?

so, right now, I'm sitting at my dining room table, trying to do this homework. I just finished my chem
work, now I'm abt to start this letter I have to write for english.

oh lord! Bae just texted an said his mom ran over his foot with the car. poor baby. I'm comingggg.....

-ciao
mikey

no school/snow day

dude, we didn't have school today becuase of the snow. and tomorrow we have a two hour delay. ain't tht some shit?! lol fine with me tho.

let's see, wht did I do today....
I woke up, got on the Book for a while, chilled out all freakin day. when my mama got home, I used the car to take my niece out on a mini shoppin spree. I loved the look on her face afterwards. I got myself some threads too. ima wait til this weekend to get some more kicks.

I'm kinda in a semi pissy mood because I didn't get to see bae today. and I really wanted to gotdammit! fck. I really needed his touchtoday.

my big sis boyfriend came over. he had jst got back from DC from the inauguration. he's in the army, and was part of protection or obama. pretty neat. me and him discussed some of lupe and kanye music and all tht good shit, cause them niggasbomb as hell.

then he went home and I went to my room and talks to my MoRob on the phone or a while, til my battery deaded and cut our convo short. lol tht girl to too hilarious. she's a pretty good friend too. always got my back.

now I'm jst back on the Book talkin to a couple people and laughing at status'. some of the shit people be changing their status to is jst too damn funny. haha.

well ima go now. I'm fckin tired as hell, and I don't really feel good.
-ciao
mikeyyy

the fluffy white stuff <3

mira!

mira!

SNOWWWWWW!!!!!

i had soooo much fun playing in the snow today.

and it was even better cause bae was there to play in it with me.

gosh i love him. tht lil boy made me make a freakin snow angel. lol he picked me up and threw me on the ground and then moved my arms up and down to make the angel!! lol

i went outside with my niece and had a mini snowball fight with her too. and my brother. tried to get my friend to come out and play, but she was btching. hahaha. but oh well, she missed out. even tho she probably would have been complianing anyway cause of how cold it was outside.

but all in all, i still had fun today. i cant wait to spend tomorrow with the bae. its gonna be even better than today. i cant wait! <3

-ciao

mikeyyy

white wonderland (:

omg.

it's snowinggg!!!!
yayyyyyy. and it looks like it sticking so tht means possibly no school tomorrow. the only bad part abt the snow is tht it's messing up my cash flow. I can't go in to work today cause the roads all slippery and Ish.

nigga, nothing gets in the way of my [$$$]. ima find a way to work. even if it mean I gotta walk my way there, which is doable, seeing
as how I live abt five mintues from my job.

it's all abt the dolla dolla bills yalllllll....and the pretty snow. haha (:

I think ill get up now. I usually don't wake up this early [it's nine:twelve]. might as well. take a shower, put on some rockin winter clothes, eat, and then go see if I can find someone to play in the snow with me.

any takers??? haha
-ciao <3

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btch, I did it already!

hahahahhha.
the words of my friend/co-worker ennis.
tht nigga is jst too funny.
he definitely kept me entertained at work today. lol

for some reason the manager kept getting in his ass abt stupid sht, and talking down at him, like she was superior or something, and he didn't know wht he was doing. I don't know wht her deal was with him today. lmao sht was funny as hell tho.
gosh, ennis, you are hilarious when irritated.

anywho, today was pretty normal.
went to church, got something to eat, came home, FB'd for a while, then went to workkk, where I was then entertained.

I work at this place called bojangles [chicken joint] and we seem to get bookoo Hispanic customers. so ennis is working drive through, and this one lady pulls up to the window and starts asking him questions abt her order in rapid spanish. he, of course, is already irritated, so he is jst like 'man. idk wht the FCK she saying. Megan, you speak Spanish right? please come'

so I go to the window, and ask her wht she wants. she definitely looks at me with a serious face and says I wanted a hambuger.' [remember, this is all in spanish] so I'm like, 'lo siento. buy we don't have hamburgers' she goes 'but your menu says you do'
I'm like nahhhhh. I translate for ennis, and he jst starts laughing and says 'where does it say we have hamburgers? we got HAM BISCUITS, but not burgers.' tht cracks me up for some reason.

so I tell her then leave, cause I got customers in the front waiting, and I don't wanna lose business [ka-ching!]

there's more to the story, but ehhhhh, I'm too tired to write it. I think ill go talk to ennis now.
-ciao
<3