It Was Never There...

the fact that i used to love him...
the fact that his opinion used to matter most...
the fact that i could never picture myself without him...
the fact that i thought he felt the same way...
the fact that i know he cheated while we were together, but i never said anything...
the fact that i know he lied numerous times, yet i never said anything...
the fact that he makes assumptions, which are complete bullshit...
the fact that i would still go back to him...
the fact that he just couldnt handle me...
the fact that he couldnt accept me...
the fact that he was a true asshole, which will get him absoultely no where in life...
the fact that he's never been right...not even once....
the fact that his ego is too big for hisself....
the fact that his ignornace and stupidity blocked me from really opening up to him...
the fact that i dont regret a bit of it tho...
the fact that i can say im completely over him and that phase of my life...
the fact that i have so much more and much better things in life waiting for me...




the fact that he doesnt even matter now.....



its amazing how he was once everything to me, and now i just see him as another nigga in the hallway. his mouth and actions always fcked him up, and he never learned from em. i realized i was slowly being dragged dow, and i gained nothing from the relationship, but knowing what its like to love someone for their all, but not having them love you back the same way.

Remember This.

"Never Let Anyone Who's Accomplished Much Less Than You Talk Shit About You.....Period"

Side Hoe.

Realize....He's Mine.

So either learn to stay in your place as the side chick and stop tryna take my place as his main, or completely disappear. As you learned before, trying to take my place isnt going to work, so i suggest you either back off like i told you, or find someone else. Simple as that. I wont be nice for much longer. Know that. So take my advice and go hop on another nigga dick. Bitch. :)

Spring Time.

spring is cominggg, and im excited :)
im ready to get all girly in my semi pastel colors and little skirts. haha. awkwarddd. but, seriously, im ready for the gorgeous weather, and everything that comes along with spring. including spring break, prom, and the ending of senior year.





Spring Break is going to be the BEST! i get to spend that time with my girls crystal, rashaunda, and danielle. and we are going to go wild. our spring break will be spent in va beach, away from the rest of the Durhamites that are going to Myrtle Beach. i need to buy a new bathing suit, btw. i just may do that today :) i want a gold one! :)




prom is also fast approaching. and yes, i have my prom date. mr Nicholas Keith Warren :) im really excited for prom, which is kind of surprising. not sure what color i want to wear, but i do know i want a short dress. dont really like how long dresses look on me. makes me feel and look even shorter than i already am. :p




and graduation. boy, oh, boy. i am SO ready for graduation, and move on with my life outside of durham. i will be attending UNCG :) and i plan on double majoring in either Biology and Spanish Or Chemistry and Spanish with a minor of French. pretty awesome, right? the college is having a campus visit day for everyone that was admitted this coming up Saturday, so i will definitely be going to that. hopefully, my dear rashaunda will be able to accompany me also.





well, thats really all for now. anything else new going on and ill be sure to fill you guys in.
P.S. Bryce and i are on good terms, and im pretty content with where we are.

Who's Better?

The Notorious BIG or Pac?

just wondering...

Bashing.

Ok, so, as you guys kow, im usually all for shit talking, but one thing i really can't do i bash my ex. I cant just sit here and talk shit about someone i once cared for very deeply. And i'll look on twitter and see the shit everywhere, look on facebook, see it all in status' and what not, hell, even look in blogs. But i just can not sit here and talk shit about my ex. They are an ex for a reason. i dont need to focus anymore time and energy into them. im not going to sit there and try and make you look bad, or go in on you or some other random shit like that, because it is in no way going to benefit me. At all. What is me talking shit about you going to do for me? When i see that, that just means that person still had feelings for the other and they just ryna over it up. *shrug* well, thats my take on things. Not gonna say its the case for all. but anyways. I dont talk shit about people i cared about, and im not going to let another person disrepsect them either. Someone tried that shit today in my formspring inbox, and i shut it down quick. Theres no need to be rude as hell. Give me a reason for that shit? Let them live their life, and ima live mine.

And i find it so funny when people tell me to try and go ham on my ex. Nigga, for what?! "Cause he be tryna go in on you sometimes" Ok, and? im not getting hurt by that shit. if he feels like he has to do all that or say all that, then let him. he isnt dong a damn thing to me. so what would be the point of me "goin in" on him? all that shows me is that he dont know how to handle shit in a mature way. its not making me look bad at all. shitttt :) but i dont really give a fck, because, lets face it, thats just how that nigga is. i still got love for the boy, no doubt, but none of yall can get me to the point where ima make un needed comments and shit like that soley about him and shit talking him. not gonna happen. so, take that how you want, or whatever, shittt, idgaf. ayeee. hhaha



P.S. Now, if he came at me directly....that would be a different story ;)

Hair Cut :)

Today i got my hair cut. And now i feel...free. :) I've been wanting to get my hair cut for soooooo long, but i never knew if it would look right on me. So today, i just went for it. And i love it! and other people like it too :) i want to add some color to it a little later. maybe a golden brownish type color or whatever [?]. now im ready to go to school to see everybodys reactions and see what they have to say. i know there will be some hater type ish said, but idgaf. fck yall :)

P.S. Excuse the junkiness of my closet in the background of the pic. Haha