I Miss You, Auntie. <3

The Anniversary Of My Favorite Aunts Death Just Passed A Couple Days Ago. & Every Since Then She Been On My Mind. My Little Cousin, Jordan, Confessed That When He Witnessed His Dad Get Married To His Current Stepmom, He Sensed That He Was Going To Have A Bad Life From Then On, & He Wished His Mom Had Never Died. & That Mad Me Sad & Pissed Me Off To The Fullest, Because Then I Started Thinking About How Bad My Aunts Husband Would Treat Her. She Died Of Cancer. & He Would Do Things Like Smoke & Shit Around Her, Or Something Else, Knowing Damn Well That Was Only Making Her Illness Worse. & Look Where It Got Her. She Dead And Gone Now. No Coming Back. He Never Really Respected Her. & I Hate How He Treat My Lil Cousin Now.

This Shit Just Been On My Mind, 24/7. Today At Work, I Broke Down & Cried Because My Feeling Of Missing Her Became SO Overwhelming, I Just Couldnt Take It Anymore. And All This Had Made Me Extremely Angry Too. I Dont Have The Patience For Anyone Or Anything Now, & I Really Dont Feel Like Dealing With BS.

And It Doesnt Help That I Have No One To Talk To.....

I Miss & Love You Sharon Denise Gorham.

Questions.

when will you learn?

do you realize you honestly make me sick sometimes?

what do you see in yourself?

why do i get the feeling that at some point you are going to try and date to 'her'?

why do other people feel the same fcking way??!

why dont you ever realize how ignorant you sound sometimes? oh, cause you always right -_-

why do i even bother with shit sometimes? [oh, thats right. cause my dumbass actually loves you for some odd reason]

you know...theres a lot of things i cant figure out. a lot of questions i want answered. thats not even a quarter of em. but can i ask them? no. cause HE will get fckin offended or wont think there is shit wrong. people who cant admit a wrong honestly have some issues that they need to get over. man up once in a while and admit you're actually wrong about something. some of these thing i cant even talk to you about because sometimes i feel like your too fckin stupid to comprehend what im trying to get at and tell you. and you wont listen!!!!!!!!! you wont be able to understand my point. you'll brush it off and try and say i dont know what im talkin about or i sound stupid.

*sigh*

and so theres nothing i can really do but continue to be the way i am......

Stress Reliever & Limits.

I Too, Have Stress Relievers. However, Mine Actually Helps & Solves Problems, Instead Of Getting Me High & Having All The Stress Still There Once Im Done Smoking....Dumbass.

Like I Said Before, I Have Nothing Against Smoking. But This Shit A Everyday Thing For You. & The Only Reason It Truely Bothers Me. Is Because It Ends Up Fckin With Your School Shit. & Has You Lying Even More. I Can NOT Respect The Fact That You Got Shit You Need To Do, You Need A Job, Etc, But You Concerned About Smoking & Shit.

What Idiot Does That??

Claim It As Your Stress Reliever. I Dont Give A Fck. Shit Is Ridiculous. When Will You Wake The Fck Up & Realize Weed Aint Doing Shit For You But Helping The Problems Build Up.

Like, Honestly, Sit Think & Explain To Me Why/How Weed Is Actually Helping You... & Get At Me When You Have A SMART LOGICAL Answer.

Ps: This Wasnt What My Original Post Was Supposed To Be About. Smh