seperation

oh whoa whoa.
I found out some news today.
haha

so. I was in class and my dad texts me. wait, first let me introduce my dad. he's the best...to me. I love my dad. I wish I could live with him. he lives in texas now [moved after katrina]. and he's a detective. he also has his own football team. the players are like extended fam to me.

anyways, he texts me in class. here's the convo:
padre-good morning
me-morning. (:
padre-I love you. do you love me? yes, no, maybe so
me-lol si si. te amo.
padre-ok. pay attention in class and stop txting me...monique wants you to call her when you get a chance.
me-ask her if she got my txt Tuesday.
padre- we r at different locations. a txt will work if you can't call
me-different locations?
padre-me and monique are not together right now....

monique is my stop mom. I call her mommy tho. but I was kids shocked. since when did yall seperate? wht he heck? they were still together and living together this pass summer when I visited. I was so confused. but I shouldn't be cause they been having some issues in their relationship...so ehhhh. guess it was gonna happen eventually. I still love my mommy tho (: she treats me like her own whenever I'm at my dad house. and she claims me as her own, along with my four other half brothers and sisters. but yeah, I guess tht means my dad might consider moving to NC like he said before. I hope so, cause tht would be the best. ahhhhh, I can't wait to see wht he decides.....

-ciao
mikey f baby

jailbird*

"and when I looked at him through the glass, I almost broke down. but then he said 'remain strong babygirl. ill be home before long"

today was a happy/hard day for me.
I was finally able to go visit my brother in jail. I didn't know if I'd be able to handle it or not, but I had to go.

as I drove up to the place he was in, I couldn't help but wonder 'geez, I wonder how he looks now'. I haven't seen him in abt eight months. I parked and hopped up out the jag, eager to get inside and be able to hug my big bro, and smell his scent...see his smile again.

I had to go through the whole security check and all tht and then I would be able to go to the visitation area. I waited as they went and got my bro from his cell. abt five minutes later, I hear them anounce 'visitors for larry darnell gorham jr, please come in'

I walked through the open door, ready to go run and jump in his arms. but I was instead greeted by booths, tht had glass, which on the other side sat the inmates. 'wht the FCK is this?' I thought. I followed the officer to the booth my big bro was at.

as I rounded the booth wall, I looked through the glass, and there sat D. tho he had a smile on his face, I could see the sadness in his eyes. all I could do was put my hand to the glass, trying to get as close to him as I possibly could, and semi smile back.

I sat and picked up the phone they had set up, so I could talk to him. we sat and talked...talked abt this and tht, how he was doing, how my life was going, and when he could possibly get out. 'I got five years lil sis. five years....' he said, before he started to cry. 'I'm sorry. I know I said I'd always be here for you...' was all he managed to say. 'it's ok D. ill be ok.' I said. I had to at least make him believe I was ok without him.

truth is, I'm not. my big brother...tht was my nigga! lol. man. whenever I was sad, mad, felt horrible or whteva, he was my escape and always made me feel better. but now tht he's in jail, who am I to turn to? everyday I wish he would have just left the gun alone. and then maybe he wouldn't be gone so long...

ill be counting down the days til he's out, and when I can finally be with my fav person again. for now, I guess I can just look at old pictures, think of all the good memories, and hold his daughter, my beautiful niece, close whenever I think abt him.

we all waiting for you at home D.

love, mikey. <3

new classes maneee

we started new classes today, and it was pretty interesting.
here's my schedule:
1-honors us history/avid
2-honors chemistry
3-honors pre cal
4-ap eniglish 3

yeah, I'm pretty loaded down. I van already tell im gonna have tons of work. all freakin core classes!!! my teachers are pretty kool. my English teacher is hilarious to me man. and we have a small class too. RARE!

the only thing I'm not really liking is that my third period is in a trailer. it's the worst! especially when it rains. ughhhhh.

I think it's pretty ironic how I have lunch with my ex [who we shall call Donk]. now we see each other AFTER we not together?? kinda stuff is that?

so, right now, I'm sitting at my dining room table, trying to do this homework. I just finished my chem
work, now I'm abt to start this letter I have to write for english.

oh lord! Bae just texted an said his mom ran over his foot with the car. poor baby. I'm comingggg.....

-ciao
mikey

no school/snow day

dude, we didn't have school today becuase of the snow. and tomorrow we have a two hour delay. ain't tht some shit?! lol fine with me tho.

let's see, wht did I do today....
I woke up, got on the Book for a while, chilled out all freakin day. when my mama got home, I used the car to take my niece out on a mini shoppin spree. I loved the look on her face afterwards. I got myself some threads too. ima wait til this weekend to get some more kicks.

I'm kinda in a semi pissy mood because I didn't get to see bae today. and I really wanted to gotdammit! fck. I really needed his touchtoday.

my big sis boyfriend came over. he had jst got back from DC from the inauguration. he's in the army, and was part of protection or obama. pretty neat. me and him discussed some of lupe and kanye music and all tht good shit, cause them niggasbomb as hell.

then he went home and I went to my room and talks to my MoRob on the phone or a while, til my battery deaded and cut our convo short. lol tht girl to too hilarious. she's a pretty good friend too. always got my back.

now I'm jst back on the Book talkin to a couple people and laughing at status'. some of the shit people be changing their status to is jst too damn funny. haha.

well ima go now. I'm fckin tired as hell, and I don't really feel good.
-ciao
mikeyyy

the fluffy white stuff <3

mira!

mira!

SNOWWWWWW!!!!!

i had soooo much fun playing in the snow today.

and it was even better cause bae was there to play in it with me.

gosh i love him. tht lil boy made me make a freakin snow angel. lol he picked me up and threw me on the ground and then moved my arms up and down to make the angel!! lol

i went outside with my niece and had a mini snowball fight with her too. and my brother. tried to get my friend to come out and play, but she was btching. hahaha. but oh well, she missed out. even tho she probably would have been complianing anyway cause of how cold it was outside.

but all in all, i still had fun today. i cant wait to spend tomorrow with the bae. its gonna be even better than today. i cant wait! <3

-ciao

mikeyyy

white wonderland (:

omg.

it's snowinggg!!!!
yayyyyyy. and it looks like it sticking so tht means possibly no school tomorrow. the only bad part abt the snow is tht it's messing up my cash flow. I can't go in to work today cause the roads all slippery and Ish.

nigga, nothing gets in the way of my [$$$]. ima find a way to work. even if it mean I gotta walk my way there, which is doable, seeing
as how I live abt five mintues from my job.

it's all abt the dolla dolla bills yalllllll....and the pretty snow. haha (:

I think ill get up now. I usually don't wake up this early [it's nine:twelve]. might as well. take a shower, put on some rockin winter clothes, eat, and then go see if I can find someone to play in the snow with me.

any takers??? haha
-ciao <3

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btch, I did it already!

hahahahhha.
the words of my friend/co-worker ennis.
tht nigga is jst too funny.
he definitely kept me entertained at work today. lol

for some reason the manager kept getting in his ass abt stupid sht, and talking down at him, like she was superior or something, and he didn't know wht he was doing. I don't know wht her deal was with him today. lmao sht was funny as hell tho.
gosh, ennis, you are hilarious when irritated.

anywho, today was pretty normal.
went to church, got something to eat, came home, FB'd for a while, then went to workkk, where I was then entertained.

I work at this place called bojangles [chicken joint] and we seem to get bookoo Hispanic customers. so ennis is working drive through, and this one lady pulls up to the window and starts asking him questions abt her order in rapid spanish. he, of course, is already irritated, so he is jst like 'man. idk wht the FCK she saying. Megan, you speak Spanish right? please come'

so I go to the window, and ask her wht she wants. she definitely looks at me with a serious face and says I wanted a hambuger.' [remember, this is all in spanish] so I'm like, 'lo siento. buy we don't have hamburgers' she goes 'but your menu says you do'
I'm like nahhhhh. I translate for ennis, and he jst starts laughing and says 'where does it say we have hamburgers? we got HAM BISCUITS, but not burgers.' tht cracks me up for some reason.

so I tell her then leave, cause I got customers in the front waiting, and I don't wanna lose business [ka-ching!]

there's more to the story, but ehhhhh, I'm too tired to write it. I think ill go talk to ennis now.
-ciao
<3

ching- music to my ears.

ayeeee.
pay day was yesterday, yessssss.
check was looking rightttt. haha

wht am I gonna do with tht wonderful dinero?
buy shoes? nahhhh
buy clothes? nahhhh

I'm buying sht for my violinnnn!! haha. yeah, I can digg it. since I wasn't able to do anything today [cause my freakin brother and sis were being fcktards and got me in trouble] I decided to make covers for some if my favorite songs. ill post the videos later.

I had a panic attack today cause I definitely almost stepped in my violin today. lord, tht was stressful. lol violin repairs cost man. ah well, I was thinking of gettig a new violin soon. the one I want is around $520. not bad. I was considering selling my electric one, but then reconsidered, seeing as how I do a lot of good alternative compositions with it.

well, I'm in the mood to play, so I guess ill scoot along and play til my fingers fall off. haha

-deuces
mikeyyyy

EDIT; weird

remember how I said I got this feeling tht bad was gonna happen it whtever?
well it did.
my stepdad got into a car accident abt five mintues after I wrote tht.

it's weird how I get these feelings of...anxiety [?] and nervousness whenever something bad or out of the ordinary us abt to happen.

I have a gift [or curse] I guess. ha

-deuces
mikey

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weird.

so, I'm sitting here. and something doesn't feel quite right. like, I have an uneasy feeling tht something is abt to happen. and I don't know wht it is!!

I hate when I feel like this cause something usually does end up happening. I hope nothing does tho.

well, I guess ill jst try and shake it off while u get ready for work.
-deuces

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no exam.

so. exams started today, but lucky for me, I didn't have one for the class I'm taking. hehe. so during tht three hour period, I talked, ate, slept, and played around on the computer in class.

I had fun during the second period review session today. the terrible three [me, mike, and eric] jst talked and got hype the while time. the teacher kept leaving the class for long periods of time [he does tht often].

I went home, got my skateboard, went to the skatepark and kinda jst did my thing for a while. then I came home to study for my pyschology exam. ended up falling asleep. haha.

I woke up and sketched some. I think my jacket design was pretty awesome. me encanta. I went through my closet and realized tht I needed some more awesome colorful tights. I'm tired of seeing everyone in the same black leggings.

the one outfit I'm tired of seeing on every girl is the sweater dress with black leggings and boots on. come on now, get creator with it. my twist in tht outfit would be wearing a oversized boys t-shirt [long enuff to double as a dress] with a nice design on the front. and then pairing tht with a pair of nice colored tights, and some cute boots. accesories would be a nice studded belt, to give it some flair [and make it look more like a dress], some nice bangles, and some cute bamboo or door knocked earrings. cant go wrong with those.

but enuff it my rambling.
I think ill go chat up some people on FB or something.
-deuces

sickness.

hello world.
ya girl is sickkkkkk. ):
got it from my cute lil cousin.

but anyways. even tho i won't feeling all tht well, my mom still forced me up and out of bed, and off to church. youth group was fun. we played a game.

after we went I go eat at La Hacienda, possibly one of the best mexican restaurants in the area. we to so much, the meseras [waiters] aldmready know wht drinks to bring ands wht out fav thing there is. haha

went to Burlington coat factory to buy some new heels. I shall out up pics later.
then I went home and made cupcakes, the best things ever!!!!

so, the timer jst went off and now I'm going to eat some then talking to my wonderful bae. gosh, he's the best.

deuces
-mikey out

sassy seventeen: its my birthdayyyy

January 4, 1992

yes yes yall.

its my birthdayyyyy.

ya girl has turned seventeen!! woot woot!

so...i was woken up with a happy birthday, a gift, and 'get up so we can go to church!' by the madre. the gift? some new kicks and $$$. so yeah, i was pretty happy when i first woke up. we went to church and then after, my aunt and some other fam all went out to eat in MY honor. (: ok after we're done eating, we all plan on going to my aunts house to chill and all tht and make yummy red velvet cupcakes. my fckin favorite!! so me, the madre, and my bro go to the store to get everything and all tht good stuff.

well, when we were tryna leave the store, the car wouldnt start. so the madre tried again, and the engine made a funny noise [like when it gets flooded]. then nxt thing we know, there's a kind of burning smell. so not even thinking abt it, we try and start the car again, and it works this time. yes!

we drive off and get on the road to the highway where theres this weird red light. madre plans on stopping the car butttt.....the BRAKES STOP WORKING!! omfg. we start freakin the fck out. luckily, she was in the furthest lane to the right, so she kinda of turned the wheel right so we would run into the curb on the right, and hope the car would stop. thank god, it does. it takes a while fr my mom to calm down and al tht, then she shes a jiffy lube across the street, and decides to go for it.

so she hits the gas, and kinda makes the car go seriously fast across all the lanes [ keep in mind, this is during a yellow light ] and manages to get us in their parking lot before narrowly getting hit. geez. so yeah, she calls my stepdad and he starts btching getting mad at her, acting like she was supposed to know wht to do when freakin brakes go out! WTF, are you being serious right now, like really!! thts a reason why i majorly dislike him. but anywho, we manage to get the brakes partially fixed at the place while waiting on the stepdad to come pick us up.

so (: we make it back home, and get to make my birthday cupcakes! so i was pretty happy after tht. but all in all, this day has been pretty dramatic. but hey, i made it alive! lol

im jst glad to be able to see me turning my sassy seventeen. choke on it btches =p

-mikey is outtie. deuces <3